Last year, I made a huge decision to go back into education to study my chosen university course. I’ll be honest, I had mixed responses off people when I first shared the news, some were super supportive of the new path I was taking in life whilst others (a select few) were slightly confused or maybe even a bit surprised, some just didn’t think it was going to be possible. I’ve got to admit that this probably isn’t the ‘normal’ academic pathway someone might take, if there even is a ‘normal’ way of doing things these days but I had my own personal reasons as do many people. It’s no secret that I was a young mum at only 17 years old when I had my first baby so I had to do a lot of growing up fast, I had to get my life together at super speed so I spent a lot of time juggling baby books with college prospectus’s.
I feel that I really developed as a person in the 2 years I studied at college and since then I’ve gone on to work with some amazing people in an industry I’m truly passionate about. However if we fast forward to 2016, I came to a point in my life where I wanted to give education another go, I wanted to push myself – I had this urge that I just couldn’t shake off, this itch to learn more that I just couldn’t not scratch. So, I did some research and got my unconditional offer to start my university journey in the following September and I couldn’t of been more excited. This was a new chapter in my life, I wasn’t going to let myself be limited and I was ready to take on the new challenge. I recently received my results back from my first year and after a recent writers block, I thought it would be good idea to write a blog post on reflection of the first year of my degree. I don’t write as many personal posts as I would like to so I really hope you enjoy reading this one.
On first impressions, I had so many questions and thoughts just circulating around my head. I was both so excited and yet so nervous all at the same time and this university experience was completely foreign to me. I found my first week pretty intense, I was learning where everything was located on campus, getting to know other students on my course, even making some friends whilst starting my lectures and knuckling down with the important stuff. It was a little crazy adapting to university life at first but I quickly got into the swing of things, there’s always lots of support available for newbies and I started to feel a little more at home after my first few weeks back in education. I enjoyed learning about the business side more than I thought I would, learning about organisational culture, business theory and finance are all going to be skills I can continue to build upon and I will certainly find them useful.
Now my first year has come to an end, I feel like a new person with so much drive and motivation to keep going and move forward. University is helping me to learn things about myself, what I am capable of and where I want to aim for. I’m realising that this girl that didn’t think she could do it, is absolutey doing it, I’m putting my heart and soul into my future and I’m learning to love myself for it. I’m not only doing this for my own future, but also my children’s future and I want to show them that they can reach for the stars and be whoever they want to be.
I feel like I’m becoming a totally different person and I feel like this new chapter in my life is allowing me to better myself, to push myself further than I thought possible. Don’t get me wrong, doing this degree won’t be the magic solution to all my problems but it will hopefully open more doors for me in regards to my career and it’s definitely given me that hunger to achieve greater and better things.
There have been times where I’ve been running around like a crazy little women trying to get everything done. I’ve had those late night, coffee fuelled revision sessions before exams. I’ve had those anxieties I think that most students face, those worries before deadlines and those mental blocks when things just get a bit much. I haven’t found it easy and I know that it’s only going to get harder but I also know that I will give it my best and I have so much more confidence in myself and what I am capable of already.
I’m so glad I made this decision to go back into education, it’s not a pathway for everyone but it feels like the right one for me and my little ones. Any doubts I may have had have vanished and I truly believe right now that if I work hard, and just keep pushing through that better things are just around the corner for me. I have the best support off the most amazing people, people who’ve done nothing but encourage me from the very start. I’m really looking forward to completing the rest of my course and continuing to move forward with my journey. I’m feeling really good right now, life is good and I honestly feel that for the first time in a long time – I know where I’m going and where I want to be.
On reflection of my first year as a University student, I feel that it was the right choice for me and I have absolutely zero regrets. I believe that good things will come to those who wait and Rome wasn’t build in a day – it’s going to be a long road ahead but I have no doubt in my mind right now that it will be totally worth it.